Hello, hello!

I haven’t written in ages. I just haven’t had time to do it. Let’s see what has happened in the non-blogging period. I am one year older now and it is hard not to notice the changes that came with it. The worries keep on piling up on my shoulders. 

Anyways, the thing I have been meaning to write about for quite a while now is Facebook. I have been thinking about it’s meaning in our life alot lately. I was even planning to try to be without Facebook for a week like many before me have done, but unfortunately is wasn’t possible and still isn’t. But still, why is Facebook an unreplaceable part of a modern society’s life? Don’t people really have nothing better to do than just create a virtual life instead of a real life? At Multimediacamp 2012 I faced that topic a little closer. When I was interviewing some other campers, about what they think of people who don’t have Facebook, the constant answer was: “I respect those people”. I agree with them, people who don’t have Facebook, especially young people, deserve to be even a little bit respected, but I couldn’t help but wonder: if people who don’t have Facebook, are respected, why do we all have Facebook? Don’t we all want to be respected? Has all the info-movement, life and everyday actions moved to Facebook? It seems so, because the general truth is that when you don’t have an account on Facebook, you are missing out on a lot of stuff that is happening all around us. We have reached the point where it is sometimes hard for people to make physical contact with others, because their whole life circles around technology. When I picture the future, I always imagine it like a scene from Wall-E where everyone floates around on their chairs and all they can see is a screen and nothing else. I see it more and more in nowadays everyday life too. It’s sad. The first thing that is opened, when reached a computer, is Facebook. The only place where quite important decisions are made, is Facebook. In most cases, youngsters find out about events on Facebook. Even good old decorated birthdayparty invitations have been replaced by letters on Facebook or just a cold invitation to a Facebook event. Ofcorse it’s good that there is a place where people can get information fast and without any effort, but I still think that people should rather choose communicating eye to eye than on Facebook. 

Facebook can be a useful site or a useless waste of time. It depends on the person using it. I personally am careful about what I do or say there because it can be used against me some day. But look on the bright side, at least there’s a free and effective way to advertise yourself and what you do (: .

Last week was quite enlightening for me. I had time to look in the past to remember the good moments, and to look in the future and see it’s bright side. Last week can be summoned up to one name: Sütevaka. Sütevaka here, Sütevaka there, there’s no easy way to get past or over Sütevaka. The Sütevaka theme started on Tuesday when I was an exchange stundent for a day there. The day was better than avarage and left me with a thought: what kind of a zoo that Koidula school is? I was also blessed with a beautiful spring weather that day and while walking home I had time to think about my experience and enjoy the weather surrounded by good old music. The view was so incredible that I couldn’t help myself to not take a picture. 

The following days I spent thinking about my choice. Am I doing the right thing? What would happen if I chose a wrong school and figured it out in the middle of a semester? Would I then have to suffer from that for three years or would the other school welcome me back with a smile? This all makes the choosing so hard, but it wouldn’t be so hard if I wouldn’t have had let myself get bothered by the talks that my teachers had given me. Silly me. In the end I came to the conclusion to go to the admission profiles and then think about it some more, yet not overthink. 

So the tests are over now. On the first day I had to write an essay. The topics were quite weird. Something like: the jackets’ two sides, walking on the roofs, the end of the chain, the world with a frame, confusion and many others. I chose confusion ofcourse and everything went quite easily after that. The second day we had a test in math, estonian language and literature and varia. That was quite testing. The math part was easy but the rest, well let’s just say I had to make up quite some stuff. The third part, which was earlyer today, was an interview. That was the thing I was looking forward to the most. I just like talking about myself and leaving an impression. The interview went so well and I was so pleased with myself. 

All in all I really hope to get that lethal call on Thursday and hear the words: “You are accepted in Sütevaka Gymnasium.” If that does really happen, an old stage of my life can end and a new one begin. I sometimes find myself thinking that it is quite a scary thing to grow up and face the world head on. Or is it? 

Oh boy! Spring is here! 

Spring is just great. I was so happy when my dear Sun appeared in the sky and started to spread some sunlight and vitamin D around, leaving the dull, grey and depressing clouds behind. It was one of the most memorable moments of this year. Although winter wasn’t too bad, it still seemed as a grey mass that surrounded everything and was inescapable, after an amazing summer and cozy fall. But my dear-dear Sun saved the day! Everything started to go a lot better. Energy-boost was momental and I had willpower and inspiration again. It was yet again possible to see good in every bad situation and even better things in good situations. Although the snow hasn’t melted yet and the cold shows itself once in a while, I still feel as if it was spring. The air is filled with spring smells and atmosphere. All this makes me even more anxious to see the first lily’s-of-the-valley and walk around without tripping over because of some snow or ice. It feels great to leave for school in the light and not suffer from the day ending too soon. I intend to take everything in, that spring offers me and I suggest you do the same. 

Have a great spring y’all! 

I know it’s school break but I’m still working. I haven’t had time to rest at all. There’s always something to do, but I don’t mind. Everything I do is voluntary. I’ve been waking up at around 6am every day now and I haven’t had any problems, but when I have to go to school and wake up at 7am I just don’t get up. It’s just physically impossible. Anyways. I’ve had a busy week and I haven’t even gotten near my school work that I’ve been left behind with. I’m going to hang myself soon. Oh! Look, what a friend of mine draw on my hand! Pretty, isn’t it? I wish I had a tattoo like that. 

(Source: thepanicinyourhead, via lmaogtfo)

Tonight has been pretty productive. I started a new blog which is basically the same as this blog here, but in Estonian. I also watched and listened my all time favorites on YouTube. During my quality time with Uncle Tube, I rediscovered my all-time favorite band: A Day To Remember. Listening to them makes me want to rave and head bang my head off. They’re so good.